Careful hoss. You're probably better off to take longer away from the booze.
Careful hoss. You're probably better off to take longer away from the booze.
"A stupid man's report of what a clever man says can never be accurate, because he unconsciously translates what he hears into something he can understand." - Bertrand Russell
Originally Posted by Jofaba
Hey!, Keep things IN PERSEPCTIVE. If your goal is to stay away from it.... stay away from it (i Know this is hypocritical....). Catch me on Xbox sometime.... we can fuck off and whack bad-guys for a while..
Don fall back on your demons.
what they said. if anyhting, leave it in your fridge. just waitll february is over, dont drink it now mang.
I never said I wanted to give up drinking all together. Alcohol isn't a demon for me. My problem is getting drunk EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'll never be totally sober. Even while I haven't been jones'n for alcohol, I've been going a bit nuts being completely sober. That's why I latched back onto energy drinks recently. The last few days I've been drinking around 100 ounces of energy drink a day.
This is about losing weight and getting away from that habit of drinking every day. I'd gotten to the point where I was actually afraid to try and go to bed sober because I didn't think I'd be able to sleep for days. I thought that I'd toss and turn every night, be tired and cranky all day, etc. I've already proven to myself that that's not the case. Now I want to see if I can have a few without getting super drunk, and then go a few days or a week before drinking again.
If I didn't buy a 6 pack of beer on the way home today, I'd have bought a 6 pack of energy drinks. Or sooner or later I'd start abusing sleeping pills (if you take 2-3 and stay up past the point where you feel tired, you start to feel really good, like hillbilly ecstasy). I am not wired to be sober 24/7/365. I just can't do that.
I've already decided that this is going to be a long term thing. My goal is to reach 170 by April 1. Also, I surprised myself to see that I actually enjoy being sober in the evenings most days. And I've been writing more! But I need to know that there's always that occasional escape waiting for me if I need it. Just so long as I can keep a muzzle on it when it's necessary.
I appreciate all the advice and well wishes guys. It's nice to know you've got my back =)
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We got yo back, brotha.
WHAT.THE.FUCK.
Well, I enjoyed the night perfectly well with a six pack. And I didn't gain 80 pounds. And I didn't wake up and immediately start injecting vodka into my veins, so I guess all is well lol.
I would have been offput if I had broken down and ordered dominos or something, but I stuck with the chicken breast that I bought on the way home and woke up at 181.6. If I manage to hit the high 170s by the halfway mark of the month, I think that will probably reenergize my spirits and I think I may end up injecting some stationary bike into my day. Looks like I may have a chance of hitting 175 by the end of the month after all! =)
Last edited by Jofaba; February 13th, 2010 at 11:52 AM.
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I personally am not a believer of being an absolutist, especially with dieting. Learning how to enjoy in moderation is a much more sustainable plan!
The first revolution is when you change your mind
about how you look at things--and see that there might
be another way to look it that you have not been shown.
If this was purely about weight loss, then both weekends would be considered tragic failures towards my overall goal. Spike #1 was a completely sober weekend void of even the minimal exercise that I get at work, coupled with perhaps 600 calories of congratulatory gluttony. As you can see, there was really just the one day that broke my downward streak. I leveled off for a day after recovering, and then had even greater success right up to my lowest weight in several years, the Saturday morning POST 1st 6 pack of the month. 181.6 pounds, down from 190 thirteen days earlier.
That evening I was terribly bored and in a bad mood. I broke down and bought, and drank, an entire 12 pack. You can see how badly that rattled my improvement, and it's taken till today to be back on par with where I was about four days ago. If I was ending this month the way that I began it, under the guise that all my success had to take place within this 28 day period, then I'd probably just declare the past 17 days a failure and give up because there's no way that I will recover in time to reach my reset goal of 175 pounds.
But March 1st no longer holds any significance for me. For me to feel bad about Peak #2 and give up would mean that I missed what I had before February 1st. But while I threw 3 of the past 17 days away, the other 14 have been a reminder of what I had 10 years ago. I started this month fully expecting it to be hell. I told myself that I owed it to myself to battle through 28 days so I could shed some weight and clear my mind a bit. What I didn't expect was for it to be as easy as it's been, or that once my head actually started to clear up that I'd enjoy it so much.
When this coming weekend rolls around, looking at that graph and the progress that I've been making in my writing will more than motivate me to stay sober and hop on my exercise bike to make up for the walking I won't be doing at work.
Chances are that I'll drink the following week, but this was never about trying to go sober forever anyway. But it is important for me to stay as sober as I can right now as I ease back into my writing, and it will continue to be gravely important for me to balance the two states of mind so that I don't let myself take the easy way out again and slip into another decade long hiatus where I call refer to myself as a writer with a sour tongue.
update:
Here is a more accurate graph anyway. I've found that afternoon weight is more satisfying to graph. This is taken every evening between 5-6pm.
Last edited by Jofaba; February 17th, 2010 at 11:06 PM. Reason: Automerged Doublepost
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Need moar pie charts.
Ooo, I have pecan pie in the fridge. Time for some 'nomming action. Thanks for reminding me
Those... aren't pie charts lol.
Nice "present" to wake up to after that post: 179.8 lbs
It'll be a week or so before I'm going to bed in the high 170's, but it feels nice to brush into it for the first time in several years.
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What do the health nuts here think of seltzer water? As far as I know it's just water, bubbles, and "flavoring". Zero calorie. I've been getting into them (once I got over the initial after taste they grew on me pretty quick). Definately better than diet soda (health wize), right?
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Any calories? If not, then there isn't really a downside to it since there should be no artificial sweetener. You could always add some lime or lemon to pick it up a bit. If you want to try something even more radical, look into using seltzer plus ginger... Isn't hard to make your own low cal ginger soda.
"A stupid man's report of what a clever man says can never be accurate, because he unconsciously translates what he hears into something he can understand." - Bertrand Russell
zero calories. "Contains carbonated water and natural flavors" is what they all say regardless of flavor. They all smell a lot sweeter/stronger than they actually are. I just love carbonated drinks and its filling the need. I figured it's just as good or at least almost as good as plain water.
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Check this out: http://gluten-dairy-sugarfree.com/?p=1047
"A stupid man's report of what a clever man says can never be accurate, because he unconsciously translates what he hears into something he can understand." - Bertrand Russell
I desperately want to cut soda out of my diet, but I haven't been able to. Water does absolutely nothing for me, and actually makes me feel sick to my stomach most of the time; same with seltzer water/club soda. Solutions?
Proud, Jo.
What the fuck is wrong with you fucks? 80%+ of what I drink is tap water.
What I found when I first tried seltzer is that it's not about flavor. You don't savor the drink in your mouth bathing your tongue before swallowing. You drink it and swallow it, getting the soda bite without the caloric might.
By the way, my "february" thing is officially over. I've got no further goal by a certain time to meet, though I am committed to a gradual continous weightloss. I'd love to be in 160s by my birthday and I feel comfortable with my laxened diet where that has a very high likability of occuring.
I'm going to start weighing myself less often (mostly to keep an eye on any spikes). I am going to start introducing stationary bike into my mornings. I'm continuing with real food, no junk food, no soda except in very far and few between rarities, and sober weekdays. I admit I have picked up drinking a bit more but so far it seems in balance with my in vs out by week's end. I'm still losing weight and drinking a LOT less.
I've essentially cut my alcohol intake by 75% per month.
Last edited by Jofaba; February 22nd, 2010 at 07:14 PM.
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JOfaba, to be honest, I don't think from your pictures that you even need to lose weight. Is it weight loss you want or toning muscles? It seems like once you build more muscle, which is heavier anyway, you'll look the way you want to without necessarily losing much in the way of pounds.
learn science. ease suffering. enjoy life.
I'm 5'4" and weighted 190lbs. I should be about 30 pounds lighter (well, now just 20). Highly appreciated though! =P
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